This post aint about me bragging about life..
I just wanna share with you a humble journey of me throughout this year..
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EARLY THIS YEAR, i was shocked to discover that I am one of 4% pregnant women in the world who suffered a Cornual Preganancy... Although at first, I was thrilled to look at my very fist positive beta after 3 cycles of IVF... Eventually, I failed!
Not so long after loosing my babies (for want of cornual pregnancy), I received another news from MYIPO that I failed, again, for the third time of my patent drafting examination... And again, i dissapoint my boss and my firm.. I am the only hope for the firm to be a registered patent agent... (dah la selalu cuti due to IVF, fail pulak patent agent... sangat lah saya tak guna kan?) I failed!
Those were the greatest double disappointment that I've received throughout my life... Truly, I feel like everything aint going to the directions that I've wanted... All I did is REDHA...
LAST FEW MONTHS, I decided to go ahead with my frozen embies (FET).. I took most of the recommended supplements to increase my chances of success.. Some thought that I'm crazyy and asked me to give a break with the treatment... Well, my heart said I should juts go for it, as I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP YET...
And not so long after that, MYIPO had given me a last chance to re-sit for the patent drafting paper.. Should i fail again this time around, I would have to repeat the whole courses again.. Well, again.. I told myself, I AINT WANNA GIVE UP.. Even if i have to repeat the whole courses, I will.. I will at my own expense, and not my firm!
AT PRESENT, i received a very high beta number for my FET.. I never would have imagined that I would reach that kind of number, considering the fact that my embies are just grade Bs.. Now, I'm just waiting for the scan day in few more days to confirm the pregnancy... At least i know that I made it this far, coz I didn't GIVE UP!
Few hours ago, i received a letter from MYIPO and the word "LULUS" appeared on the paper... Finally, I've passed!! Officially, I am now a registered Patent Agent in Malaysia.. Alhamdulillah,.. Praise to Allah.. I've passed coz I didn't GIVE UP!
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The reason I'm writing this today is not to brag about anything,.. Today, I've realised that every blood sweat and tears that we've been through will pay off eventually.. The most important thing is that, DON'T EVER EVER GIVE UP... I believe that Allah will never disregard all your efforts.. Allah knows WHEN is the PERFECT time to give back what you've deserved..
I guess, this is a PERFECT time for me to pass the patent examination when my firm has starting to question my absence throughout this year..
I guess, this is a PERFECT time for me to receive a positive beta, after my MIL has starting to realised how I've struggled to conceive... She's now very2 supportive, unlike the last previous attempts...
Maybe,... wallahualam...
The most important thing is :
WHEN EVERYTHING SEEMS TO GO TO YOUR UNDESIRED DIRECTIONS,
STAY FOCUS,
DONT EVER GIVE UP!
terharunya..thanks for sharing...lega sikit hati baca..dan insyaAllah...doa noora babybaby sis semua sihat dan selamat..aminn=)
ReplyDeleteyour stories indeed, truly inspiring. i have some conflicts i.e. career, studies, relocation, not to mention infertility, but your story make me believe the 'Don't Give Up' mantra. thank you for sharing this.
ReplyDeletethis is such a touching story and i would like to thank you for it.
ReplyDeleteI am trying again.after my 1st miscarriage early this year, I was so traumatized that at one point of time i wanted to give up.6 mnths down the road, after changing my stressful job, i decided to give it a go again.and i keep convincing myself never to lose hope, never to give up.it is such a struggle to make me a positive person again.
anyhow, i truly pray you will find yr happy news soon.
xoxo
totally agree wit u reen! kalau kita giveup.. mcm mana lah nak berjaya kan ;) alhamdulillah things getting better for u now :D
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