A Perfect Timing

My LMP was on 29/11/11 and this month, it came exactly on 27/12/11. Wow, never had this cycle before.. My period cycle is indeed improving! Thank you Allah!

Therefore, I was asked to go see Dr Wong on my 2nd day of my period. The Dr did some scanning, and he found out that there were not so much eggs on my right ovary during my menses.. But luckily, there are few on my left ovary.. Dr predicted that he wont be picking up that much eggs during OPU.

Well, for me, as long as my eggs; eventough little in quantity is in a good shape, i might have a chance, rite?

Well, now Dr prescribed me with MICROGYNON for a week.. He said that I will be expecting my menses again after that.. *phew* I gotta stock up my pads huh? hehehe..

My OPU and ET will be estimated around the 3rd week of January (just right after my bday..). I hope my DH will still be with me,.. Or else we will have to resort with frozen sperm, again..

Ya allah, permudahkanlah segalanya.. ameen!

the schedule is here!

The Waiting Game

If you had or currently undergoing an infertility treatment, WAITING is a vital part throughout the process. You just have to undergo the 2ww after ET.. wait for the Beta HCG results, wait for the LH level results, and list goes on and on..

Yes, i'm impatiently waiting for AF! The sooner the better. The sooner im expecting my AF, the sooner i will start my 3rd IVF cycle, without using frozen sperm.. And yes, coz my DH is still here with me. He'll be leaving to work soon, very2 soon..

Dear Allah, help me please..


p/s- I cried watching yesterday's "Semanis Kurma".. the topic was "bahagiakah tanpa zuriat" - my MIL shud watch the show, i guess..

I've Decided!

After a long thoughts with my DH, we finally decided to choose Dr Wong Pak Seng from Sunfert for our third IVF attempt. The reason is simple - Sunway Medical Centre is the nearest to our home. I've experienced a long massive journey based on my previous experiences, and it did make me feel uncomfortable..

Therefore, Sunfert it is!

I did my first check ups with Dr Wong few days back and after LOD with Dr Colin, it did shows some improvements on my both ovaries. My period is longer now, previously my period only lasted for 3-4 days.. Now it's getting better already.

BUT, the sad part was, my DH's sperm quality is even worst from the last check ups. Dr has subscribed some medications to my DH with hope that the sperm quality will improve before the procedures started. Or else, we are just going to resort to IVF/ICSI once again.

Well, I'm just hoping for the best that i could. May Allah be with us and guide us along the way, ameen rabbal alameen..

Starting to Hate Weddings

Hello all..

Ive been busy for the last couple of weeks.. Busy preparing for my bro-in-law's wedding.. And as predicted, Ive been poured with soo many 'sensitive' questions by the relatives. Some are genuinely concern, but most of them are just looking for my weak points.

Well, those were the challenges that I need to face as long as I remain child-less.. But what hurt me the most was, my MIL intentionally made fun of me and DH in front of the rest of my relatives. She was referring to DH's cousin who was apparently younger by 2 years to my DH, but the wife is carrying their 3rd baby.. "dah tiga anak boboy (DH's cousin), kau angah (my DH) sorang pun takde lagi.." said my MIL and all the relatives were laughing at us.

I was stunned and when my tears were about pour, i kept telling myself that I aint wanna create a drama in the middle of the wedding.. I gathered my strength and just smile throughout the day. But deep inside me, I was falling apart and I felt that the world has crumbled.

Even the lil kids knew about me being a child-less.. I wonder where the hell that they got the news from? Their parents i supposed. It seemed that I was the "headline" of the day with my inability to conceive after 2 years of marriage. Wtf?

I feel so embarrass, truly.. I sometimes wonder, what did I do wrong to DH's family that they didn't even wanna respect my feelings? I even thought of a situation whereby my bro-in-law's got pregnant before I do, what will happen to me? Will I be abandoned by my own MIL?

Ya allah, gimme strength to face this reality..